All photos by me.
My poetry may be bad,
but I blame the news.*
*- With apologies to Lana Del Rey.
All photos by me.
My poetry may be bad,
but I blame the news.*
*- With apologies to Lana Del Rey.
This place no longer exists. |
Finally, here are three haunted places from in and around the town where I grew up. This isn't counting the abandoned asylum (photo at the top of this post), which has since been completely leveled and is now a construction site. Never mind. I have no doubt it will soon be an addition to my list of haunted places.
Annie's Road (Totowa)
Annie is the ghost of a teenager, dressed in white, killed by a pickup truck as she tried to find her way to safety along unlit Riverview Drive. She fled her boyfriend's car after an argument on Prom Night.It's also the most romantic place in town.
How?
Take a look at the Facebook page of New Milford's mayor's office.
The gazebo is where Mayor Michael Putrino officiates civil wedding ceremonies.
Ever since the start of the pandemic, I've seen some of the most heart-warming images on the site, including these six wedding photos in just the past two months.
A Thrillist story this past week calls it the creepiest place to visit in New Jersey.
It's located along Mountain Road in Basking Ridge, and Amber Sutherland-Namako writes:
"Out of context, the tree's silhouette alone is enough to inspire nightmares: a warped, half-dead oak looming in the middle of a lonely field, with dozens of ax marks lining its trunk. Then there's the gruesome history. A purported meeting place for the KKK, notorious suicide site, and rumored gateway to the depths of hell, the Devil's Tree is infamous among locals and has evolved into a chilling tourist attraction. Legend has it, anyone who harms the tree will suffer swift and violent retribution..."
A few other Garden State stories piqued my interest this week.
Here's a Record story about the rededication of St. Anthony of Padua Church in Passaic:
More than 3½ years have passed since the church was forced to close its doors after the ceiling partially collapsed on Holy Thursday. Parishioners organized raffles, festivals, carnivals and other fundraisers to raise $1.3M for renovations. It shows."This beautiful church is a symbol, and we pray for 50 and 100 and hundreds of years more [that] we continue to be here in this community, this beautiful symbol of all of God's goodness and blessings that he gives to us and that we receive,'' said Bishop Kevin J. Sweeney of the Paterson Diocese, who led last week's rededication Mass in both English and Spanish.
Passaic has a special place in my heart because my Mom always talks about it affectionately. More about that later.
Closer to home, I found two stories practically outside my front doorstep. Here are Instagram posts about each:
View this post on InstagramSaw this on the ground today, nowhere near a ballfield ⚾️ #RoyHobbs
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Returning to Passaic:
I once wrote about how proud Mom was to be known there as "the girl in the photo shop window" when she worked at Kresge's in the 1950s. A photographer on Main Street displayed a large portrait of her – a print from her engagement photos – in the main window of his shop.
I recalled this story as I sat with Mom on my recent birthday at an outdoor cafe on a beautiful Sunday morning. She had an egg and cheese sandwich, and I ordered eggs over easy with bacon and rye toast, which is what my Dad always used to order for breakfast.
Dad died 15 years ago on Oct. 24, and we both miss him terribly.
Before we left, I asked Mom if she would pose for a photo with me. Mom readily agreed, but she made me take about a half dozen photos before she said I took one of her that was good enough for me to post.
Decades pass, and life is so post-pandemically weird, but some things never change.
Just blowing off some steam... |
I love New York, and I have the photos to prove it.
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Radio City.Anarchist Jurisdiction?No Ghost Town tonight.
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A Trump-made tower,melting into the background.Soon to disappear?
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A precovidian memory... |
Rain glistens at night.
Two, under an umbrella,
seek the Rainbow Room.
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Chatham (top) and Provincetown |
Not that it matters. All four of us are privileged, so New York isn't really ours.
Also, as E. B. White eloquently noted in the 1949 foreword to his love-letter/essay, "Here Is New York," the city can't be written about or "brought down to date" by anything other than opinions and observations offered at the speed of light.
But what if...
What if, in 2020, we have the speed-of-light technology to see into the soul of New York?
I think we might.
My little corner of the Google Photos cloud is now filled with "auto-stylized" images of New York in the summer of 2020 that differ from the New York I saw with my own eyes.
This technology is not new, but it appears to be evolving. Before the pandemic, after taking cell phone photos of New York, I would often be surprised to see an additional image or two that had been auto-stylized by Google in my photo feed.
Almost invariably, the AI had edited the images in black-and-white -- as if Google had the same nostalgic view of New York as E. B. White in 1949.
In 2020, many more of these auto-stylized images have magically appeared on my phone in a very different form.
As if it has transported me to the land of Oz, New-York-as-stylized-by-Google now appears in hyper-vibrant color.
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My return to New York was a plot hatched by my daughter Maddy, who lives in an East Side apartment just one block from composer Irving Berlin's former home, two blocks from Katharine Hepburn's former home, five blocks from the workplace where I met my wife Nancy, and eight blocks from the site of our first date (when Nancy lost her wallet outside a movie theater playing "The Natural," yet with great relief found her cashed paycheck stashed separately in her purse... for we all lived from paycheck to paycheck in 1984, the year before E. B. White died).
My daughter and I are enamored with New York's poetic nature. Poetic, in the sense that it "compresses all life... into a small island and adds music." That's how White describes the city in his famous essay.
When I lived in New York before marrying Nancy (29 blocks from Maddy's apartment, on the other side of Manhattan), I think perhaps I once shared a wordless ride on the 7 Train to Shea Stadium just 18 inches from writer and Mets fan Harper Lee.
In 2020, 18 inches has become 6 feet, and my daughter has experienced her own random link with Oz in a casual nod of recognition exchanged with actress Mary-Kate Olsen in her Turtle Bay neighborhood.
Maddy is perceptive and literate. In April, she offered great editing suggestions to a pandemic-related short story I wrote. A few weeks later, she said she planned to be out of town for a week and suggested, just like White's editor Ted Patrick, that "it might be fun" for me to hole up in the city in mid-July to write about New York.
Maddy offered the use of her apartment, but between her work responsibilities and other family obligations of my own, the "week" turned into the Sunday night before I was scheduled to return to my office at 777 3rd Ave., between 48th and 49th streets. Instead of spending several days alone in 90-degree heat at the Algonquin Hotel, I spent a single, comfortable, air-conditioned night with Nancy in Turtle Bay.
As I posted here last month, a feeling of great forlornness and forsakenness struck us. We had the sense that New York had become strangely vulnerable during the pandemic.
We were comforted by a visit to an old, familiar bar.
"At least Murphy's will always be here," I said -- then learned in the weeks that followed that it too had closed for good at the end of August.
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Which brings me back to Google, and its conjuring of New York's ghosts.
E. B. White wrote that summertime is a good time to re-examine New York and to receive what he called its gift of privacy.
So much is happening in New York at any given time, he reasoned, that individuals can choose whether to attend or pay attention to any particular thing, and that no one thing can throw the city off balance or inflict itself on a person.
He also wrote that although no plague could wipe out New York, the city was -- with the then-recent development of planes carrying nuclear warheads -- for the first time in its history, destructible.
People nowadays can ignore what they choose, creating their own realities from a vast global storehouse, with myriad ways to experience sudden rejuvenation. Because of technology, "New York" is now everywhere. And we now know that, over time, pandemics have the same destructive power as our bombs.
I think the idealized version of New York today -- which Google's AI somehow senses and changes over time and then reflects back to us -- is the idealized version of what's best in each of us. It is the New York of the person in quest of grand achievement, a more meaningful life or simply better days to come.
I think these stylized images are digital versions of the old willow tree that E. B. White wrote about.
Off and on in the '40s and '50s (and while he wrote "Charlotte's Web"), White lived in Turtle Bay Gardens, a complex of 20 contiguous townhouses in two rows on the north side of 48th Street and the south side of 49th Street between 2nd and 3rd Avenues. Personal favorites Bob Dylan and Kurt Vonnegut lived there in later years too.
The buildings enclose a private, central backyard. White particularly loved a willow tree that grew there. It stood outside his apartment window and next to a replica of a fountain at the Villa Medici in Rome.
He concluded: "Whenever I look at it nowadays, and feel the cold shadows of the planes [bearing possible annihilation overhead], I think: 'This must be saved, this particular thing, this very tree.' If it were to go, all would go..."
As it turns out, White's willow is now gone... like Murphy's, like the New York we all remember. The tree died and was removed in 2009.
With support from composer Stephen Sondheim and other Turtle Bay Gardens residents, Urban Arborists in the Red Hook section of Brooklyn cared for the tree until the very end, and founder Bill Logan has been nurturing its cuttings so that they may be replanted in parks across the city.
(PS - On Sept. 23, Logan sent a note that Urban Arborists replants more cuttings from White's willow every year. The original offspring from the tree "is now more than 40 feet tall in our yard in Brooklyn.")
All this is alright with me. I don't want New York back again, back the way it was. I'm excited by the prospects of the New York that is to come.
Besides, Google has my back. It is creating little digital snapshots of an idealized version of New York that will truly live forever. Technology has dispersed these ageless pixels into the ether, to be perhaps deciphered one day by the life forms discovered this past week on the planet Venus.
The photo on top of this page, for example, is a Google-styled vision of Turtle Bay Gardens. When I returned to my office on July 20, I realized -- for the first time -- that our Board Room windows on the 23rd Floor overlooked these buildings, and the interior gardens where White's tree once stood.
Our building had been vacated due to the COVID-19 lockdown, and the windows had not been cleaned in more than four months. Google's AI brightened my camera's God's-eye view and nostalgically blurred the dirty, dried droplets of rain as if they were heavenly stars.
Google -- like me and Jerry Seinfeld and Patti Smith -- knows the value of this city... this mischievous and marvelous monument which, not to look upon, would be like death.
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This post is dedicated to White's stepson, the writer Roger Angell, who is celebrating his 100th birthday this weekend. Angell originally commissioned White to write "Here is New York" for Holiday magazine, and his foreword graces the 1999 edition of its publication. Below is Edward C. Caswell's illustration of White's willow tree from the tailpiece of the original 1949 edition.
I posted the above on Twitter, feeling nostalgic on a Friday morning. Then I noticed Van Morrison trending, because of this:Peak @springsteen 42 years ago this weekend at the Capitol Theatre... the poets down here don't write nothing at all, they just stand back and let it all be
— Bob Varettoni (@bvar) September 18, 2020
Jungleland (Passaic, NJ 09/19/1978) https://t.co/oAHHb1vhTD via @YouTube
This is the site of the Capitol Theatre today https://t.co/0Lay8adaWW pic.twitter.com/PHwhu3DhTb
— Bob Varettoni (@bvar) September 18, 2020
Empty Sky Memorial, Liberty State Park, NJ, 2020 |
Newly added is a booklet from 2005 about the history and recovery of 140 West Street, the old headquarters building that was severely damaged at Ground Zero... and from which workers snaked temporary cables from open windows to get the New York Stock Exchange up and running just days later, beginning our national recovery.
Here are links to a half dozen related posts here (from most recent to oldest):
I hope you can make sense of it all.
Even 19 years later, I can't.